I need a mental health day today.  I threw out about $3,000 into the garbage this morning.   It was hormone drugs for IVF.  I did it because I was afraid of how sick it might make me or how sick it could make me in the near future.  I blame myself for looking into IVF in the first place.  My husband and I are quite happy at times, and I can’t help to think that perhaps an offspring may add to our happiness and make us complete.  I hurt my husband terribly.  I threw out money and his hopes of becoming a father.